Who’s That Girl?

by on December 21, 2011

kasi

Is this me?

I have spent a lot of time looking at old pictures of myself and wondering if I will be that person again. I feel as though I don’t look anything like the girl in those photos and it makes me feel a twinge of sadness. Most of my time is spent dwelling on the superficial. My hair is so long! I had eyebrows! I miss my eyelashes! I am happy to report that all three are starting to grow back, but I’ve got miles to go before I look like the person in this pic again.

What I do know is that on the inside, I haven’t changed. I want to take this time to be an even better version of myself and not let this experience taint me. I don’t want to live in fear that this is going to come back. I don’t want to be scared every time I have a blood test or a scan. I don’t want to be worried over every little ache and pain.

All of that is way easier said than done. Still, I have this feeling that I am going to be just fine.

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Lori December 21, 2011 at 7:27 pm

Kasi,
No, you will never be that person again, but you will be a new, more amazing, stronger person than you were before! Of this i have no doubt. I’m SOOOOOO happy to hear your hairs are growing in. I’m still the bald faced wonder. I’m just trying to hang onto my finger nails right now. hope hope hope.

LOVE YOU!
Lori

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Kasi December 27, 2011 at 3:24 pm

Hi Lori! I am hope, hope, hoping for your nails to!!! You won’t be the bald faced wonder forever. I know everyone says that and when they said it to me it just seemed like it would never come back. But it does!!!!!! I love you girl, keep hanging in! <3

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Lesa December 22, 2011 at 1:40 pm

You are still you, you might not look the same to yourself, but all who love you still see the gorgeous, happy and confident person that you are whether your hair is short or long. Life and people change all the time, it’s how you handle the changes that will determine the happiness in life. And you my daughter will have a long, happy life!!!

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Kasi December 27, 2011 at 3:22 pm

Thanks Mom! I read a cool quote the other day and it said “However good or bad a situation is, it will change.” And I fully intend to have a long and healthy life – I’m already happy! Love you!

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Miya Goodrich-Phillips December 28, 2011 at 2:55 am

Kasi, you WILL be just fine! I feel it for you too! You’ve had such a good attitude through this and now you’re on your way out. You will look like that picture again, but you’ll have grown and changed so much through this experience. I’m proud to say you’re my friend! I’m behind you all the way!!!

Love

Miya

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